˚…« Maisyarah «…˚

2009 isn't getting any better for me.

Though i'm taking full charge of my own life,
i feel miserable deep down.
I'm jobless, i quit schoolin, the love is away,
the parents thinks i'm an utter disappointment.

I'm prayin that i have better luck this week.
I'm hopin to secure a 8-5, 5 days, job so that i can find
another night time job.
I'm hopin too that the aunt is willing to continue to
finance for my studies.
When everything is settling down, i will apply for
RMIT Accountancy.
And finally i still have 12 days left before meetin the love again.

I miss my love damn badly.
I miss his eyes, his lips, his voice, his hair, his scent, his body,
his touch, his hugs, his kisses, everythin of him.
No other guys is capable of replacing him in my heart.

But am i worthy for all that?
I'm sinful and i'm guilty.
Most of all, i'm ashamed to face you.
How could i've acted foolishly under the influence of alcohol?
Why did i do all that?
I'm to blame for everythin.
Forgive me baby.

I'm an utter disappointment.
I hate myself.